For years, every morning started the same in my life. Wake up and get ready for the day while getting the kids ready for school. I used to look at this as a burden, as a punishment of sorts for the life that I had chosen. I got no rewards for making sure that everyone brought their homework with them each day. There was no joy in knowing that we all woke up on time. Life was just life. The same thing everyday. Even though my life was pretty good, I couldn’t see that. Life had always been “okay”.
I soon learned to really identify and appreciate the good times and to have faith that more good times were on their way during the hard times.
Life ended up throwing me a fast curve ball. My life got turned upside down. For months it felt like I was never going to be okay again. I was never going to lead a normal life. I was never going to feel healthy and I was certainly never going to be happy.
I was sick. Like, really sick. Nobody could figure out why I was sick and I just accepted that this might be the end. I might be sick and miserable forever. I had lost faith that I could get better.I accepted a false hood that bad times are forever.
The day before my 35th birthday I was sitting outside watching my then 3 year old play in the sun while I felt sorry for myself and my situation. I realized right then and there that my life would not always be like this. I wouldn’t always feel this bad even if my health never got better. I had the power to feel better despite things that were out of my control.
Fast forward two years and I often remind myself about that day. I whisper in my mind “this too shall pass” whenever I’m having a bad day and that stops those negative thoughts right away.
I look back on those “okay” days with such joy and love in my heart. I recognize that I was very blessed to have those times with my children… to even have children at all. There was so much happiness in my “okay” life and I was missing it.
How often do you feel like your life will never be better. That this is it. This is as good as it’s going to get… even when it’s not that great. Have you just given up all of your faith that it will improve?
I want you to stop for a moment. Imagine the life that you really want. Seriously do it. Just take a few minutes and let your mind go to a happier life. Are you feeling healthier, do you have love in your life… are you just all around happier? Now open your eyes and say out loud “This too shall pass” and believe it!